Monday, November 26, 2012

Thanksgiving celebrated and thoughts

So, I had a small thanksgiving gathering with my sis, and boyfriend. My sis and I did all the cooking and planning which I found to be such fun. I must confess I have recently got into cooking fresh wholesome food. It fulfills me as yoga does because I am taking care of my body, mind and soul.

Since, I have not been working yoga has taken a back seat in my life. I find that I am choosing  a daily run over yoga as my anxiety is rising due to my worrying nature. As I said in the last post, I am blessed to be able to have my own authority back. Yet, I have another voice saying, you gonna move home? find a yoga teacher training in India? Is this what you want? I feel my mind is a conveyor belt of thoughts which are not moving me into a space of empowerment. I recently watched a movie called: How to heal your Life by Louise Hay. The whole idea of the movie is that your thoughts create your life. If we change the way we think, feel and view situations our world will be filled with sun. So, I get the message yet I am having a hard time shifting my thoughts to the positive. This brings up questions for me about my next step.
 How bad do I want to teach yoga and live a life that aligns with my beliefs? How bad do I want to create a space that helps people love and accept themselves as they are? How bad do I want to grow and stay in a loving and compassionate energy field?
This jerks me into a state of action where I need to shift my negative energy and send it packing. I need to make time to research yoga teacher trainings. I also need to reintroduce myself to my beautiful pink yoga mat that supports me in my yoga poses. Thanks for listening as this has released the stale energy and may my theme song be:
They told him don't you ever come around here (negative unproductive thoughts)
Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear (the face of fear that wont help my path appear)
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear (The passion is in my eyes and my heart is really clear on my path)
So beat it, just beat it ( so anything that hinders me from reaching happiness better BEAT IT, BEAT IT!!!)

I am ready to shift my energy so dont no negative energy come around here


Thursday, November 22, 2012

Life really speaks if you are listening

So, the Vancouver yoga trip set in motion a chain of events emotionally for me. I was pulled out of the clouds and into a place of sunshine. My mood shifted to the positive, my thoughts were generating positive, and the energy from the yoga conference also brought about peace and joy within my soul. From this I started to ask how can I sustain this feeling of inner joy which is then generated out to the universe.

My sis and I spoke of this new found energy. We set up a path to happiness for me to follow and here they are:

Meditate both am/pm with lit candles at my spiritual alter.
Quit my job
Follow my ayurveda body type, which is vata
Daily yoga in the am before I start my day

So, Monday came and I was nervous to tell my boss I was quitting, yet 10 am roles around. We are in the greenhouse and she says there are more cut backs which I say oh ok, thinking nothing of it. Then she says and your last day is next week. At first I am shocked then I become filled with joy as I told the universe what I wanted and it was granted for me. I can honestly say I have never felt so blessed in my life as I was given signs that this was not my place and magically I am given an empty road where I can draw my own path. As I reflect back on this expereince it is positive and I learned many things, worked with great people and found my passion for great food once again. Yet, I know I am menat to do something else. As I end I want to share photos of my sis and I taking yoga to the streets of Vancouver. These moments were freeing and inspiring to break the norm for myself both inside and out.

Me getting my tree pose on as we check out Gastown

My sis with two on lookers doing the dancer

We had to pose in front of these colorful wall paintings

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Vancouver Yoga, FUN!!

Wow, my first yoga conference which was in Vancouver, BC. This was a three day event with free yoga classes all day, concerts like kirtan sang by Will Blunderfield, trantric dance and booths with fun stuff to buy.

We got there Friday night my sis and I. We checked into the hotel then off to check out the yoga scene which was exciting. Since, it was late there was only time for a walk around, dinner then off to kirtan concert. We didn't know what to expect in regards to the concert, but it was great fun as Will is  a singer and performer. Everyone was sitting on the floor and we did some pranayama, sang along and Will slipped in some Hanson  Mmmbop chants which filled the room with free flowing energy. He also sang a song called Long time sun which had a great message read by the woman he sang withs daughter.   
If you wanna check Will out in his website.
I wanted to share it with everybody because it is beautiful and true.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinkingso that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory that is within us. I
t is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciouslygive other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson

May the long time sun
Shine upon you
All love Surround you, Surround you!

After attending that concert which was filled with positive, inspirational words the poem above made so much sense to me. We are powerful when we step into our own power which I believe is defined by living our purpose/passion, using the unique gifts we have and sharing them with the universe. Wow, this was only day 1 and it only gets better. 
The next day we started with a gratitude yoga class, next focused on bring the poses back to our hearts center, yin yoga and finally Ayurveda poses for your dosha. I must not forget lots of meditation which after two hours of yoga I had reached a stay of clam bliss. I felt so energized and renewed after all that yoga.    
As I conclude this experience I want to say that when we take ourselves out of our minds and into our hearts, breath and take in all that surrounds us that is when life brings
us blessings and teachings. Where is that space that brings you back to your heart space?

View from yoga conference, beautiful

On Orcas Island a place I found peace

A hike on Orcas Island that I loved and did often. Great spot to meditate. Mt lake trail.
Stanley Park view such beauty


Monday, November 5, 2012

Lessons on the mat

Well, I have been seeking advice on when to quit my job, will I find another? Can I afford to quit? How can I not quit as this job is dragging me down? Should I ride it out until the layoff date December 25th?  Wow my mind is incessant with questions, answers and ideas. So, I must get on my mat and quiet the mind. As I practice the asanas it brings me back to myself.

Tadasana- grounds me into the earth
Warrior I- I am strong and in control of my journey
Reverse warrior- I seek strength from a higher power as I look to the sky,
Down dog-Aaaah relax and be in this pose, breath, breath
Cobra- flow into your decisions and own them

I also wanted to share a book I refer to after I have done my AM yoga. It is called Living Your Yoga Finding the Spiritual in Everyday Life. by Judith Lasater. As, I was reading the chapter on Spiritual Seeking which relates well to my journey now. Judith talks about when we are in a state of wholeness it brings you back to your natural being. I feel this describes how I feel when I step onto my mat.

May you also find that place of wholeness. I end with a mantra for the day from the book:

I am my own authority!

Reconnecting with my whole self